February 2012
No matter what decision I make, someone is always hurt.
You can’t just let people take advantage of you. You just can’t let people push you around. You’re an individual on this earth. You don’t “work” for anyone. You can’t just let people run your life.. Sometimes, you just have to stand up for yourself and be a “bitch” so the message is clear.
Tell me if I’m wasting my time, because I’m done waiting.
Where you don’t know what the fuck is going on anymore. You start to not care about anything. You lose your motivation. You’re so confused on what to do about a multiple amount of situations, and you just can’t sort out your feelings. You feel empty; like practically nobody is there for you. Like no one understands you. And it keeps going on to the point where there’s nothing to look forward to anymore.
I’m always being told do to what makes me happy. But once I am, everything gets screwed up.
It happens every time. People lose interest in me. They get tired of me. Suddenly, they don’t bother hitting me up anymore. The conversations become shorter. They forget about me and I just become a distant memory. I wonder if it’s my fault sometimes. But then I realize that people never stay in my life. And there’s nothing I can do about it.
- me: wow I'm actually happy right now
- life: lol now hold on just one minute
I’ll be a horrible wife (x I can’t cook, clean or any of those ‘wife’ duties to save my life. But what I can do is to love him with everything I have, I can be there for him, for better or worse. I’ll do whatever it takes to make my husband feel like he’s my one & only.
Are usually the ones that loved you the most. Keep them close.